Bury us in black

If you wanted honesty that's all you had to say
I have my head against the floor
Dinal coloring my tears
pulg my ears no longer wanting to hear more
The silent screaming is unbareable
Holding on to any glimps of hope
How are we to cope
There's fire all around us
Fueled by your anger and lies
Your with her while your child is here
with her head on the floor as she crys
I like my lonelyness
And sometimes i find my peace
in the shadows of your background
I'm standing from the outside
Watching my world collapse
Time won't take away my scars
It won't heal the pain
Don't think you haven't caused your share of hurt
I have a wall of scars that you've single handedly cut
Your nose is only growing longer
Your lies only growing stronger
You can't even see that what your chasing is a vampire
So leave like the the cowards
enjoy your fire and brim stone
this isn't a war against you faith
To much to late
I'm not okay
What will it take to show you
that it's not the life it seems
so turn away
And keep walking
Burry us in black
Don't turn back
Wasn't it you who told me
to write my own script
Practice what you pretch
So if we say good bye today
I'd ask you to be true
In all my agony
It just ain't livin
And i just hope you know
That I'm not goin down
with out showin your true colors
Were you ever really there
Did you ever really care
How can you call this fair
All you want is pay back
Go ahead and eat your just deserts
This is what you've repped from what you've sone
I'm looking for the answers to questions I'll never ask
Sort through your bitterness
And find the truth you know has always been there
The truth won't ever change
though your thoughts become more duranged
It's from this lonelyness
and the fear it brings
Your masks tire
Brim stone and fire
Your walls crash down on me
Your looking down on me
Bask in your embarassment and hurt
Reconcile you emptyness
As i close the door on your childish lies
Next will i be who you despise
My scars repoen
There's something i keep forgetting
As you watch the tears I'm shedding
Burry us in black

the river- good charlotte

As I walk through the valley

of the shadow of LA

The footsteps that were next to me

have gone their separate ways

I've seen enough now

to know that beautiful things

don't always stay that way

I've done enough now

to know this beautiful place

isn't everything they say

I heard that evil comes disguised

Like a city of angels

I'm walking towards the light

Baptized in the river

I've seen a vision of my life

And I wanna be delivered

In the city was a sinner

I've done a lot of things wrong

But I swear I'm a believer

Like the prodigal son

I was out on my own

Now I'm trying to find my way back home

Baptized in the riverI'm delivered

I'm delivered

(M. Shadows)

You're from a small town

you're gonna grow up fast

underneath these lights

Down in Hollywood on the boulevard

the dead come back to life

To the praying Mother

The worried Father

Let your children go

If they come back they'll come home stronger

and if they don't you'll know

They sing that evil comes disguised

Like a city of angels

I'm walking towards the light

Baptized in the river

I've seen a vision of my life

And I wanna be delivered

In the city was a sinner

I've done a lot of things wrong

But I swear I'm a believer

Like the prodigal son

I was out on my own

Now I'm trying to find my way back home

Baptized in the river

I'm delivered

I'm delivered

Baptized in the river (on my own)

Baptized in the river (on my own)

I wanna be delivered

(on my own)

(on my own)

Baptized in the river (on my own)

I wanna be delivered

Baptized in the river (on my own)

I wanna be delivered

Baptized in the river (on my own)

I wanna be delivered

I confess I'm a sinner

I've seen a vision of my life

And I wanna be delivered

Skylines and Turnstiles- Mcr

You're not in this alone

Let me break this awkward silence

Let me go, go on record

Be the first to say I'm sorry

Hear me out,

And if you take me down

Or would you lay me out

And if the world needs something better

Let's give them one more reason now, now, now

We walk in single file

We light our rails and punch our time

Ride escalators colder than a cell

[Chorus]

This broken city sky like butane on my skins

tolen from my eyes

Hello Angel, tell me where are you

Tell me where we go from here

[x2]

Tell me we go from...

And in this moment we can't close the lids on burning eyes

Our memories blanket us with friends we know like fallout vapors

Steel corpses stretch out towards an ending sun, scorched and black

It reaches in and tears your flesh apartAs ice cold hands rip into your heart

That's if you've still got one that's left inside that cave you call a chest

And after seeing what we saw, can we still reclaim our innocence

And if the world needs something better, let's give them one more reason now

[Chorus]

This broken city sky like butane on my skin

stolen from my eyesHello Angel, tell me where are you

Tell me where we go from here

[x2]

Tell me we go from here

On step

One step closer to the edge
A bleeding heart
a broken pledge
Who do you stand for
When all you do is beg for more
i dance circles around you head
Leave your old self with the dead
Give me all your hopeless hearts
Come back again with a brand new start
listen to my words instead of hearing all your own
When i can't even talk to you on the phone
who else am i to blame
You bring your self such a shame
You've lost at your own game
Time to change
and face the music
Show us that you've changed
Give me a reason to believe
Show that you won't decieve
You don't even care that i greieve

One step closer to the edge
and i beg you not to jump
But youu can't even hear me
You don't even care
Now why don't you explain to me how this is fair.

Daughters- john mayer

I know a girl.

She puts the color inside of my world.

She's just like a maze,

Where all of the walls all continually change.

I've done all I can

To stand on the steps with my heart in my hand,

now I'm starting to see

Maybe it's got nothing to do with me.

Fathers be good to your daughters;

Daughters will love like you do

Girls become lovers who turn into mothers,

So mothers be good to your daughters, too.

Oh, you see that skin;

It's the same she's been standing in

Ever since the day she saw him walking away

Now she's left cleaning up the mess he made.

so, Fathers be good to your daughters;

Daughters will love like you do

Girls become lovers who turn into mothers,

So mothers be good to your daughters, too.

Boys you can break,

You find out how much they can take.

Boys will be strong, and boys soldier on,

But boys would be gone without warmth

From a woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man, looking out for every girl,

You are the god, and the weight of her world.

so Fathers be good to your daughters,

Daughters will love like you do

Girls become lovers who turn into mothers,

So mothers be good to your daughters, too.

So mothers be good to your daughters, too.

So mothers be good to your daughters, too

It's not all about the hero

Never seen shadow so dooming

spuwing every hurtful lie

A script so well read

Lead by the self centered voice in your head

oh mr. father life doesn't always play your way

Shallow sorrys just get thrown in the closet

next to broken promises regret and shame

who were you to change this game

oh Mr.Father if you'd listened

instead of trying to control the thoughts in my head

Sometimes you only listen if you think its what i should have said

Oh Mr.father your so far from walking on water

And right now you need those percing words

I guess they just don't hurt as bad when your the one

throwing them from your hand

I guess I'm smarter than you think

Mr. Control freak

You don't own any chapter or verse

Because those lines are all rehersed

oh Mr.Father don't bother with promises

so clearly lies to win and buy

Don't try to justify your lies

and the way you had to hide

Cause that dance was for my daddy

which I can see i never had to bad

To bad you threw away the only chance you had

So find your self amongst the askes

And try to practice what you prech

Your not sorry and you don't care

you let us down for another affair

Sorry we weren't good enough to keep on living for

You've made your choice so keep on walking

i'll show you to the door

Walk one mile in my shoes

pull away your pride see that I am

who i am and I'm not afraid to shine

These words are mine this hurt is mine

These tears are mine and

hell yes these fears are mine

I haven't read one line

But i guess you couldn't say the same

isn't that why you turn away

I'm not in the game of rasing the dead

so raise your self by changing instead

Oh Mr.Father you wrongly said 16 years of silent tread

oh Dear father i pronounce you dead!

Thanks for the Venom- my chemical romance

"

Sister, I'm not much a poet, but a criminal

And you never had a chance

Love it, or leave it, you can't understand

A pretty face, but you do so carry on,

and on,

and on

I wouldn't front the scene if you paid me

I'm just the way that the doctor made me, on,

and on,

and on,

and on

Love is the red the rose on your coffin door

What's life like, bleeding on the floor,

the floor,

the floor

You'll never make me leave

I wear this on my sleeve

Give me a reason to believe

[Chorus]

So give me all your poison

And give me all your pills

And give me all your hopeless hearts

And make me ill

You're running after something

That you'll never kill

If this is what you want

Then fire at will

Preach all you want but who's gonna save me?

I keep a gun on the book you gave me, hallelujah, lock and load

Black is the kiss, the touch of the serpent son

It ain't the mark or the scar that makes you one,

and one,

and one,

and one

You'll never make me leave

I wear this on my sleeve

Give me a reason to believe

[Chorus]

So give me all your poison

And give me all your pills

And give me all your hopeless hearts

And make me ill

You're running after something

That you'll never kill

If this is what you want

Then fire at will

You'll never make me leave

I wear this on my sleeve

You wanna follow something

Give me a better cause to lead

Just give me what I need

Give me a reason to believe

[Chorus]

So give me all your poison

And give me all your pills

And give me all your hopeless hearts

And make me ill

You're running after something

That you'll never kill

If this is what you want Then fire at will

Chorus]

So give me all your poison (Fire at will)

And give me all your pills

And give me all your hopeless hearts (Fire at will)

And make me ill

You're running after something (Fire at will)

That you'll never kill

If this is what you want (Fire at will)

Then fire at will

my personal bubble is the place that i stay
when i hide all my feelings and lock them away
when i shut out the world
i listen to shouting and rammblings a sterede in my mind
when i feel that the world has left me behind
In there things are fair
for a little while the world seems right
in the dead of night
i face all my frights
take control of those things that control me
My personal bubble is mine
i don't feel that i am inclinded
to show you my secets
or the things in my mind
Cause then you'd claim they were yours
and then they wouldn't be mine
My personal bubble is the place that i stay
The thing that makes me the best every day

NoBody's Home- Avril Lavigne

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,

She felt it everyday.

And I couldn't help her,

I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?

Too many, too many problems.

Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.

It's where she lies, broken inside.

With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.

Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.

You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.

Be strong, be strong now.

Too many, too many problems.

Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.

It's where she lies, broken inside.

With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.

Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.

Her dreams she can't find.

She's losing her mind.

She's fallen behind.

She can't find her place.

She's losing her faith.

She's fallen from grace.

She's all over the place.

Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.

It's where she lies, broken inside.

With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.

Broken inside.She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

Stake

Look into my eyes
full of suck despise
From the cruelty of all your lies
Can you stake my heart?
can you just tear my world apart?
where am i to start?
for you who has no heart.
i refuse to let you be apart
of my life that I'm about to start
for you who has no heart
go a head and pull that trigger
practice what you preatch
soon you'll reep what you have sown
You never guessed it'd be this full blown
when will you see that without us your house ain't no home
the clock is ticking
your out of time
and now your left with just this rhyme

FIRE!

if this is what you want then fire at will
Just know that i'm not the one that your bullet will kill
Cause i'm stronger then this
i won't let shelfishness curse me with her ice cold kiss
5.....
4....
3...
2..
1.
Very soon your game wont be fun
Your ceiling willl cave in
Your walls will come down
And when you search you'll find I'm nowhere to be found
Cause you've been warned of what you refuse to see
To tell you the truth watching you go through this does pain me
PaPa right now your so full of lies
And right now the flies are building a coffin just your size
With gun in your hand and your finger at trigger
and your ego that only seems to gets bigger
i say once again please don't pull the trigger
you think you so brave
you think your so smart
but it not me but you whose being run over by the cart
if this is what you want then fire at will
And through it all i'll pray for you still.

The Sharpeast Lives- My Chemical Romance

Well it rains and it pours

When you're out on your own

If I crash on the couch

Can I sleep in my clothes?

'Cause I've spent the night dancing

I'm drunk, I suppose

If it looks like I'm laughing

I'm really just asking to leave

This alone, you're in time for the show

You're the one that I need

I'm the one that you loathe

You can watch me corrode like a beast in repose

'Cause I love all the poison

Away with the boys in the band

I've really been on a bender and it shows

So why don't you blow me a kiss before she goes?

Give me a shot to remember

And you can take all the pain away from me

A kiss and I will surrender

The sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead

A light to burn all the empires

So bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be

In love with all of these vampires

So you can leave like the sane abandoned me

There's a place in the dark where the animals go

You can take off your skin in the cannibal glow

Juliet loves the beat and the lust it commands

Drop the dagger and lather the blood on your hands, Romeo

I've really been on a bender and it shows

So why don't you blow me a kiss before she goes?

Give me a shot to remember

And you can take all the pain away from me

A kiss and I will surrender

The sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead

A light to burn all the empires

So bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be

In love with all of these vampires

So you can leave like the sane abandoned me

[2x]

Yesterday!!!

Killing your self from the inside out
A Pirates Packed theres no way out
Deception and lies the tears your kids have cryed
How does this not pain you?
The cutts, the crys, the tears, the lies
You find to your suprise
You've been caught inside those lies
So you chose
Its us or this new life your so determined on chasing
Here's the truth were facing
Its just not livin when all you do is wait for someone who doesn't want you
Will the money make you happy
Is the silents full filling?
Is lonleyness that thrilling?
If this the end then you should know
Even though you've hurt me so
Even though it pains me to say I love you anyway
The only question left to say is...........
Why don't you love us like you loved us yesterday?

MaMa- My Chemical Romance

Mama, we all go to hell.

Mama, we all go to hell.

I'm writing this letter and wishing you well,

Mama, we all go to hell.

Oh, well,now,

Mama, we're all gonna die.

Mama, we're all gonna die.

Stop asking me questions, I'd hate to see you cry,

Mama, we're all gonna die.

And when we go don't blame us, yeah.

We'll let the fires just bathe us, yeah.

You made us, oh, so famous.

We'll never let you go.

And when you go don't return to me my love.

Mama, we're all full of lies.

Mama, we're meant for the flies.

And right now they're building a coffin your size,

Mama, we're all full of lies.

Well Mother, what the war did to my legs and to my tongue,

You should've raised a baby girl,

I should've been a better son.

If you could coddle the infection

They can amputate at once.

You should've been,

I could have been a better son.

And when we go don't blame us, yeah.

We'll let the fires just bathe us, yeah.

You made us, oh, so famous.

We'll never let you go.

She said: "You ain't no son of mine

For what you've done they're gonna find

A place for you

And just you mind your manners when you go.

And when you go, don't return to me, my love.

"That's right.

Mama, we all go to hell.

Mama, we all go to hell.

It's really quite pleasant

Except for the smell,

Mama, we all go to hell.

2 - 3 - 4

Mama! Mama! Mama! Ohhh!

Mama! Mama! Mama! Ma...

[Liza Minelli:] And if you would call me your sweetheart,

I'd maybe then sing you a song

[Gerard Way:] But there's shit that I've done with this fuck of a gun,

You would cry out your eyes all along.

We're damned after all.

Through fortune and flame we fall.

And if you can stay then I'll show you the way,

To return from the ashes you call.

We all carry on (We all carry on)

When our brothers in arms are gone (When our brothers in arms are gone)

So raise your glass high

For tomorrow we die,

And return from the ashes you call.

Predictable- Good Charlotte

Something isn't right

I can feel it again feel it again

This isn't the first time

That you left me waiting

Sad excuses and false hopes high

I saw this coming still I don't know why

I let you in

I knew it all along

It's so predictable

I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)

So you don't have to call

Or say anything at all

It's so predictable (so predictable)

So take your empty words your broken promises

And all the time you stole cause I am done with this

I can give it away give it away

I'm doing everything I should've

And now I'm making a change

I'm living the day

I'm giving back what you gave me

I don't need anything

I knew it all along

It's so predictable

I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)

So you don't have to call

Or say anything at all

It's so predictable (so predictable)

Everywhere I go

Everyone I meet

Every time I try to fall in love

They all wanna know why I'm so broken

Why am I so cold

Why I'm so hard inside.

Why am I scared

What am I afraid of

I don't even know

This story's never had an end

I've been waiting

I've been searching

I've been hoping

I've been dreaming you would come back

But I know the ending of this story

You're never coming back

Never..never..never..never.....[echo].....

I knew it all along

It's so predictable

I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)

So you don't have to call

Or say anything at all

It's so predictable (so predictable)

Everywhere I go for the rest of my life (so predictable)

Everyone that I love

Everyone I care about

They're all gonna wanna know what's wrong with me (so predictable)

And I know what it is

I'm ending this right now..

Cancer- My chemical romance

Turn away,If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors,
My sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you,

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away,

'Cause I'm awful just to see

'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,

Oh, my agony, Know that I will never marry,

Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo

But counting down the days to go

It just ain't living

And I just hope you know

That if you say (if you say)

Goodbye today (goodbye today)

I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

Spiritual Heritage

As I got older the topic of God and religion got harder for me. when i was little I absolutely loved church I would wake up at the crack of down with my grandma to get ready for church. My mom would fix my hair beautifully and have me all dressed up shed pray that id look this perfect long enough for the people at church to see me after that she knew she could pray the whole church service but it was almost guaranteed that when she picked me up Id look like i just got thrown into a war zone. Something about church even then was my safe haven. i couldn't explain it but the comfort i got from just going to church even so young made me want to know more and more about god.
But when i was seven we moved about an hour away from where we were living we stopped going to church solidly for a long time every once and a while we'd visit places, but the excitement for church and god died out. i always understood that god was in our hearts but i didn't have a love for him like my mom, my grandparents, or even my aunts and uncles. i felt kinda ashamed, but i let everyone believe that i had some type of huge connection with God. i remember my grandma would talk about spiritual heritage and before our move it made no sense to me at all. But after the changes I've gone through I've realized what she meant.
Not only that but I've found an interest in God again. I understand what my grandma was saying. I'm loving my family and communicating with my mom. and most of all learning how to be a better person. its hard right now for me to comprehend but in about four years I'll be heading to college. I'll be starting my own life. So I'm trying to straighten my self out before its to late. i believe that even though things are rough for me right now that there's a light at the end of the tunnel. i believe that the only way our family will get through this is if we hold on to God instead of the things of this world.

Looking Back

Some where between 6th grade and 8th grade i went for girly girl to kinda goth, to poser goth, to punk, to normal mature (kinda mature) person. I've done quite a bit of growing up in such a small amount of time and I've gone through allot of hurt and change. Recently my family went through a cross country move. This was especially hard for me. It seemed that since 8th grade had started everything I'd ever wanted like the type of friend i hung out with, the way my grades were going everything seemed great. In the back of my mind i had a feeling that the bottom was gong to fall through because to my teenage mind it always does. I never noticed then how closed out from the world I really was until we made that move. It seemed normal to me that i didn't talk to my parents or that my mom was in our home office all day long working to help my dad. Or even that my dad was always gone on business trips or that the only time we really saw him was when he would wake us up for school every morning. It didn't at all seem strange that our house was full of screaming and fighting. To me it was completely normal that I acted like a mother to all of my siblings even my older brother. Looking back now at the way i acted i can see how the relationships I held with were strained how even now my older brother still resents me. I cant really blame him its must have been like living with Hitler's twin sister or something. I'm willing to admit that I'm super controlling that I have to always be right and that I put my needs above allot of things. But I really do love my family and i realize that it was my love for my family that kept me hanging on. It's hard to look back and say that I really was that green eyed monster always jealous and moody. It really pains me to think about all the people I've hurt. Still I've matured greatly through this move. I'm still trying to right my wrongs and I've realized not only do I have to be sincere but that sometimes just apologizing won't do anything its the effort that really fixes things. I remember when people would comment on what a little mother I was how mature and dependable I was, but the lady I've become and the women I'm becoming through God is so much more beautiful then any styling diva i thought i was before. The really dependable person I'm becoming and the honestly mature person I'm learning how to be make fell prouder about my self because I know I'm trying to be a better person

In the End

In the end your nothing but a puppet and the worlds a stage for you to convey the problems that you see all around you. people will come to sit in the audience they'll laugh at you and ridicule you for saying the things they've been to afraid to say all along.

In the End you'll be the last one standing on your side and you'll look out at your enemy and notice that it's everyone who used to fight beside you. You'll ask your self why? Why are they against you? All the while your never stopping to think maybe it's the other way around? Maybe your against them? Maybe your the enemy, the antagonist, the bad guy from the story.

In the End you'll realize how much you've really given up. You'll realize what you've done and you'll run towards the brighter sun. But in your heart regret, and pain will linger. And when you realize what you've done your heart will ace, your knees will shake you'll see the tears wiped by little fingers. You'll jump in to comfort but a little to late is your effort. Once again what used to be precious to you is precious again, and you run towards it but find you were the one left behind.

In the End you'll realize its better to be who you are instead of changing into the mask of the person who you most desperately wish you could be to escape who you are and the mistakes that you've made. did you ever stop to think maybe the person who you wish you could be wishes they could be you?

In the End no one but you is accountable for you actions. So stop blaming others no ones falling for your lies.And every one sees past your masks so take a chance to show who you really are! If you can remember who you are.

In the End you left to face your self....

WHAT THEN?